I have to be honest. I have to be. And there is something I must be upfront and honest about.
This business is often a struggle for me.
Photography is such a joy for me. When there is a camera in my hand, something clicks into place and everything makes sense. Photographing people has always been my favourite subject. I love telling a story with photos. I love meeting people and trying to read their story, and taking photos that can somehow communicate that. I love going wandering with a Wild Hearted woman and coaxing the self love into open air. Nothing has ever filled my soul with such purpose.
The business side can be tricky for me, though. The wedding "Industry" makes me uncomfortable. I often feel like I am timidly standing near the edge of a pool party, dipping my toes in the water. Because I just don't know if I can swim in that kind of environment.
I don't mean to speak negatively of other photographers or how they practice their businesses, on the contrary I think that sort of community is something to celebrate! But I guess I have always been a bit of a wallflower. And the pool party atmosphere just doesn't work for me, to stretch that metaphor a little too thin.
Some days I get wrapped up in comparing myself to others. Some days I get discouraged by seeing the clever business tactics of others, and knowing that I don't have it in me to put on a persona in order to seem more attractive to clients.
So here's the truth: I love taking your photos. I will be so completely dedicated to delivering photos to you that make your heart swell. I want to be there for you, as a human and a friend as well as a professional. And I am giving up on the idea that hiding my personality or trying to fit into a professional mold will prove that.
I preach Self Love and honesty. And it's time I started practicing. There's no need to punish ourselves for not fitting into molds. This is why we are here: to celebrate how completely unique each gorgeous beating heart truly is.
I, Heather Nolan, hereby love myself for deciding to leave the path behind and forge my own in this business. I promise to always be real with you guys.
If this hits your heart like it hits mine, feel free to reach out by leaving a comment below or sending a note to firstname.lastname@example.org. It's not easy for me to open up this wide, so I will very much understand if you are shy to do the same.